March 17, 2010 - Posted by sykesa17 - 0 Comments
It’s so frusterating, a couple weeks ago I couldn’t get full if my life depended on it and this last week, I can barely eat. Today, I made myself 2 eggs with red pepper and I ate half of it. Nothing sounds good. If I wasn’t on diet and ice cream was sitting in front of me, I wouldn’t even be able to finish that (and if you know me then you know I NEVER say no to ice cream). I don’t know why I am feeling like this. I have to force myself to eat or I won’t eat. If I don’t eat, I don’t lose weight!
I’m working the midnight shift this week and stopped by Atlanta Bread Company to grab a salad for before I headed to work. I am definitely sick of salads, but it is the easiest way to get my veggies in. I am on a fairly strict diet, where there are alot of veggies that I can’t have. So I ordered a house salad with only lettuce and cuccumbers with a double portion of chicken. I get all the way to work and discover that I got all the fixings for the House Salad; lettuce, cuccumbers, mushrooms, tomatos, and carrots. Now on this diet I can have mushrooms and tomatos (I just don’t like them), but no carrots and those were the hardest to pick out. I know I am bitching, but I don’t think I ask for too much when I order. It’s just frusterating that I already have to eat something I would rather not and then they make it worse. It wouldn’t have been so bad either if they didn’t mess my boyfriend’s dinner up and gave us the water we wanted. We both ordered water (thinking bottle) since we ordered it to go, and when we picked up the food we asked them for our water and she says she didn’t charge us for water and the cups are by the fountain. We went over to the fountain and they were little dixie cups. What was the point, one swig and then it’s gone.
What I ate:
Breakfast: Diet Pancakes (snacks that I get on the program, I get 2 a day) with Strawberries
Lunch: Scrambled eggs with Red Pepper- Slice of 40 cal whole wheat bread and light butter
Dinner: Chicken Salad and slice bread and butter.
Snack: Apple and Chocolate Soy Snacks (another snack I get) and Skinny Latte (yum)
March 17, 2010 - Posted by sykesa17 - 0 Comments
Like most people starting the new year, they want to lose weight and I am no different. I have struggled with weight my whole life and have done diet after diet. When I first moved to Denver, I didn’t know anyone and just became really active and watched what I ate. I ended up losing about 25 lbs and could fit into a size 6! Well, I got depressed and my life changed, so stupid me stopped exercising and ate whatever I wanted, thinking that I would start again after my rough patch. My rough patch ended and I was not motivated. I thought since I had gained 10 lbs back, that it was over. Then, I gained another 10 lbs. Every month, I said this is the month that I will start taking care of myself and every month slipped away without so much as another thought. As 2009 came to end, I was not happy with myself and it showed in every aspect of my life; work, home, sex. I hated my body, I hated my clothes that were becoming increasingly tighter by the day, and I hated the way I felt. I needed motivation to get started and when a coworker started talking about how she signed up for this new diet and how excited about it she was, I got excited and started believing in myself again. Now, it helped that I could barely fit into my FAT pants and that it was going to be 2010 and a new year brings new changes. I decided to go into the weight loss center and see if it would work for me. Of course, the first thing they wanted to do was weigh me and at that point I had no idea how much I weighed because I hadn’t been on a scale in over a year and half, but I did know it was the heaviest I have ever weighed. And I was right, I tipped the scale at 194. I set my goal weight to 135, knowing that when I get there I will make another goal of 125. The last time I weighed 125 was 13 years old, so I am really skeptical about being able to achieve that goal. I started the program on January 3, 2010. It has been 71 days since I started and I have lost a total of 24.75 lbs. I decided to start a blog as an outlet and a way to stay motivated and accountable. After 71 days, I am sick and tired not being able to eat what I want and it is really hard. 24 lbs is awesome, but I still have 46 more lbs to go and I think the second 24 lbs will be harder than the first and the last 24 lbs will be even harder.
